Known Unknown? Unknown Known?

“As we know, there are known knowns. There are things we know we know. We also know there are known unknowns. That is to say we know there are some things we do not know. But there are also unknown unknowns, the ones we don’t know we don’t know.” – Donald Rumsfeld

I’m currently working through a known unknown known (I think) – that is to say I know something, but do not know everything about what I know.

I know just enough to be dangerous for me and others! And just enough that, if I let it, will eat a hole in my stomach until I really know what I know I don’t wanna know!

I think I am going to take a sharpie and write Jeremiah 29:11 on my hand so it’s a constant reminder:

“I have it all planned out—plans to take care of you, not abandon you, plans to give you the future you hope for.” Jeremiah 29:11 (The Message)

Or maybe a tattoo?

No worries…right?

What a Grand New Day!

I’m home from the Women of Faith Conference in Dallas. Three letters – W – O – W!!!

This is my third WOF conference to attend and couldn’t be more on target. The Porch Pals manage to make every one of the 16,000 women (and a handful of brave men) feel as if they are being spoken to directly!

Not only did the event re-ignite that fire (exactly what I needed), but I also got to meet some folks I have gotten to know on twitter. A message went out about a ‘Tweet-Up’ for those following WOF on Twitter – we gathered in a spot and looked at each other’s nametags and were humbled to meet those whose lives we’ve been sharing in! Truly an awesome group of people.

I know I’ve mentioned it before but Twitter has become a source of strength for me – I pop over and read updates throughout the day and the constant faith washes over me. I don’t see people griping about their day or making fun of people – I see updates that are uplifting and encouraging – I see wonderful men and women who use humor to uplift. Just reading a few tweets can turn my day around in an instant! I had been drifting a bit, but those 140 character updates have become an anchor and I’ll take this moment to say Thank You to those I follow and who have become important!

I was unsure about how to sum up the Women of Faith Conference – during the event I jotted down key phrases and thoughts that spoke to me, so in honor of Luci Swindoll and her love of lists, here is my WOF List:

* Let go and know that I am God! Let go of control, let go of fear

* If what you are doing isn’t working – STOP!!

* section 325, row T is the last row at AAC – seriously the LAST row!!

* Squat on a Stick means nothing – nada – zilch (Sheila Walsh)

* God said, “We’re in this together, until you kick the bucket, so go for it!” (Luci Swindoll)

* Even with all the bathrooms turned to women’s the lines are still looong!

* You delight my heart in a million ways! (Patsy Clarimont)

* Develop an attitude in the midst of trouble – God is on your side!

* It’s not possible to listen to Steven Curtis Chapman sing ‘Cinderella’ without bawling (blessings on that family)

* God takes the Good and takes the Bad and loves us anyway!!

More thoughts are still swirling through, but it may take a while to process (which will allow for another blog – YAY). Special thanks to my group from EE and our CEO for sponsoring and sending us at his expense. We truly appreciate the loving gesture!

C-O-N-T-R-O-L

I was reading Michael Hyatt’s “We Have More Control Than We Think” blog post from March and began thinking about the topic of control.

Webster-Miriam Online defines the Control as the following:
a : to exercise restraining or directing influence over
b : to have power over

Synonyms include: authority, bridle, discipline, domination, government, guidance, management, manipulation, might, oversight, predomination, qualification, regimentation, regulation, restraint, restriction, rule, subjection, subordination, superintendence, supervision, supremacy, sway, upper hand

Antonyms include: helplessness, powerlessness, relinquishment, renouncement, weakness

I don’t know about you, but those antonyms sure make me feel squirmy – I mean, really…who enjoys feeling helpless and weak? But that’s exactly how we all feel when we ‘lose control’ don’t we?

We are taught early to control our emotions and actions and even eating habits. As children it seems like everyone, from parents to relatives to teachers, are determining what we can and can’t do and we long fervently for independence where we can ‘make our own decisions’.

Once we become adults it’s like a badge of honor to be in control – so when life begins to careen in another direction, when our best-laid plans are not coming together we begin to experience those feelings of powerlessness: loss of control.

How many of us teach our children how to cope when (in the words of Tammy Cochran) Life Happens? Obviously they are learning from us regardless, but are they learning that when things aren’t in our control we fall apart? We give up? We stress and overeat and rant and rave and blame and…you get the picture.

I don’t know about you, but it annoys me when my daughter just throws up her hands and gives up – I don’t want her to learn that that’s how things are dealt with. I want her to be able to handle life’s little curveballs. Sometimes that’ll be finding a different solution, or making a new plan, or letting go of something that isn’t working. Sometimes the answer will be just getting through it. Everytime it will be giving it over to God and trusting in the knowledge that He will be there good, bad or ugly!

It won’t always be easy. Sometimes the curveballs just suck (for lack of a better descriptor) – like cancer or death of a loved one.

These are the times our lack of control makes us want to curl into a little ball and cry and find someone to blame. And it’s ok to curl into a ball and cry and have feelings – showing emotion is not lack of control – lack of control is when you give in to those emotions.

These are the times, more than any others, when it is imperative to ask Him to help you up and hold you and yours through this valley.

There are so many things in this world we don’t have control over, from the weather to how long that dash represents on our headstone. What we DO have control over is whether we give in to those feelings of helplessness or whether we choose to cast all our fears to God and walk on with our head high knowing that whatever trials we face He will be there beside us every step of the way.

“Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself.” – Matthew 6:34

When you begin to feel out of control – take a look at that word itself:

Cast

Off your

Need

To

Rule

Over

Life

Change of Seasons

How did it get so late so soon? Its night before its afternoon. December is here before its June. My goodness how the time has flewn. How did it get so late so soon? – Dr. Suess

It’s two-and-a-half weeks until the kids start school. Beans starts 3rd grade (she’s already stressed over her first TAKS test this year), T-Man starts kindergarten (already praying for his teacher) and Lumpy starts 2-year preschool (and pacifier intervention).

The object of education is to prepare the young to educate themselves throughout their lives. ~Robert Maynard Hutchins

We’re busy gearing up – trying to get supply lists organized and get sleep schedules back on track. We still don’t know what teacher’s Beans and T-Man will have. Hopefully by next week we’ll find out – and get a chance to meet up with T-Man’s to warn him/her a bit!

Beans is not excited about her brother joining her at school. Monday when we were discussing it she threw her head back and exclaimed, “My nightmare has begun!” (Can we say drama-queen?) T-Man, on the other hand, is thrilled with the prospect – he loves hanging out with his big sis!

I’m excited because with T-Man starting big school his daycare costs are cut in half! YAY! When all 3 kids are in daycare in the summer our daycare costs are more than our house payment – that’s just crazy!

I’m trying to get Beans out of her shell a bit. Her friends have told me that she’s the ‘funny one’ who cracks all the jokes and makes them laugh, but she is also pretty shy – she does not like being in front of people she doesn’t know. I think she would love doing theater or something, so we’ll have to see what’s available.

T-Man doesn’t have a shell – he thrives on attention…like when he and 10 other kids are on-stage at preschool graduation towards the end and he shouted ‘It’s party time!’ and did a little dance. I know the other parents were probably warning their children about THAT boy! (I was secretly pleased that he was the one with the spunk – I mean, him momma was the school mascot so it’s not like he didn’t come by it naturally!)

Anyone who thinks the art of conversation is dead ought to tell a child to go to bed. ~Robert Gallagher

Anyway – I’m looking forward to getting the kids back into a school routine, seeing how T-Man fits in, watching Bailey blossom as a young lady and hopefully get Lumpy thinking about potty training. The fall brings with it a world of new opportunities and changes.

”I say this because I know what I am planning for you,” says the Lord. “I have good plans for you, not plans to hurt you. I will give you hope and a good future.” Jeremiah 29:11 (NCV)